Michigan

Back again!

So.  I left Huntington Beach... as it turns out, the rooming house was not so bad.  One of the guys living there hooked me up with an old laptop that he fixed up so I'd have something to jump online with on the road.  And, yeah, I hit the road... no job, no money.  Had a lead on a job in Kansas, recommended by a friend.  So I went there first and waited about for two weeks before discovering that they had given the job to someone else.  C'est la vie... but I had no plan after that, so I looked into staying with my cousin in Michigan.  I mentioned it to my aunt (his mother) and she said that she had a room I could stay in.  So I am in Michigan, at my aunt's house, next door to my cousin and his family.

And I am not yet working.  Getting antsy.  Have some more leads, and have been looking at everything from teaching to customer service to working on the line for Chrysler.  Not sure what's in the immediate future for work, but I am hoping to get working soon so I can fix up the car or buy a camper... maybe just a van with a bed in it.  I don't know yet.  And I'd like to go to GenCon, maybe back to Burning Man, and so forth.  Probably can't afford both this summer, but I'll try to head to GenCon for sure, as Indianapolis is only about six or seven hours from here.

I miss Jenny, my former girlfriend, and I miss Greta, my pit bull.  I guess "former" dog, but that doesn't sound right.  I'll always think of her as my dog, and I imagine she'll always think of me as one of her humans.

Just checking in... with myself, for the most part, as I'm not exactly advertising this blog or using it as much more than an online journal at the moment.  Maybe that will change.

I am working on a book, and discovering that it's work!  Surprise, surprise.  It's enjoyable, but there's much to keep track of.  I don't know who writes and just has a book flow out of them, but that's not me.  I am tracking bits and pieces of information, creating character profiles, creating a history for the world (it's fantasy fiction) and then going back and revising that history or those profiles and so forth.  I decided recently to start getting into the meat of it, even if I go back and change much of it, so I am now bouncing back and forth between writing scenes and adding to or revising the information in my notes.

I suppose I need to get my ibogaine experience out here some time.  Life-changing experience.  Terrible experience in some ways... horrific... but also perfect, and just what I needed, and insightful.  Worth Googling if you've never heard of it.  It has changed my perspective on the world as a result of allowing me an opportunity to change my perspective of myself through plumbing the depths of my consciousness.  And I feel that I have a better understanding of the nature of reality, and that it is awesome and terrible at once, and I am intimately a part of it, and that I forge my own destiny based on the way I think and the actions I take as a result.  Something like that.  Perhaps I will write more about the experience later.